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I walked to his car and got in. I talked about my day. He talked about his. Work was just generally discussed. After that it was an awkward silence for a few moments and then me talking about my sister's move. We somewhat kept a conversation going until we got to the gyro place. He got out and K and I stayed in the car. . We left from there and discussed that movie I returned at the redbox at Love's. He put his arm around my seat and then rubbed my neck and shoulders for just a moment. We got to Kroger and he went in for water and laundry detergent. We started to pull out and he could hear the train. I told him to go the back way on Eastland.

Being a good father really goes a long way. Otherwise, I wouldn't look at you right now. Every time I begin to think "Hmm, this isn't so bad", You remind me of exactly why it is impossible for me to make an actual commitment. Not on my bucket list: *marriage *buying a house The only permanence I don't second guess is Kaiman Monster.

Chip and I fought today. It's midnight. I havent spoke to him since six. He wants to give me everything and I just can't accept it. I push him away to the point he snapped and is staying away. I'm only glad I've had a few days to get used to being alone. I already miss him. Six hours in and I can't breathe.